Stop and Breathe

So there is a phrase- "emotionally exhausted". To me it has always sounded dramatic. Like its a phrase that should only be used when bad, tragic things happen. Thankfully nothing like that has happened but that phrase comes to mind when I think how how exhausted I am from my emotions. I just want to lie around and do nothing waiting to stop feeling like this. Its nothing individually major, it is really just a combination of things that just add up and boil over. I am a natural worrier. I worry about EVERYTHING. I also sometimes struggle with anxiety so that doesn't help matters.

For one there is my emotions over my son turning a year old. I know it just sounds silly but I really didn't expect to be so emotional over it. I'm not sitting here crying my eyes out over it or anything like that but its just a sadness in my heart that lingers. I know I should be grateful, and I am. I feel incredibly blessed to have been able to become a mother and have this amazing, healthy, happy little man to call my own but I still get sad. I look at pictures from when he was first born. I realize all the "firsts" he has had and although I know there are many firsts to look forward to I will never experience them again. I feel like time goes by too fast and that I am not getting enough time to savor everything.

For another I am a bit stressed about my hubby. He is having a minor routine dental procedure done (thank you sports injury) but anytime the word surgery is mentioned I do tend to freak out a little bit. So yeah please lend an extra prayer for my husband to be ok and heal quickly and have minimal suffering.

I also stress for someone. Someone I won't mention by name only because I don't want to mention anyone that might be uncomfortable being named. But I stress for this person because the past few or like many years have been rough. Again nothing tragic or anything like that but this person seems to have many more obstacles on their path then most people. These obstacles also come at like the worse times. And they just keep coming. It will get better. God has certain ways of doing things and he chooses to do them on his timing not anyone elses but thats what life is about. You just have faith and keep trudging along and hold onto the good.

Of course I also have the normal everyday life stresses. Money, household, etc. But thats life. So tonight I am going to rest. Let my son splash in his bath as long as he wants. I'll read an extra story for bedtime. Then some quality time with the hubby. I haven't decided if my evening will include an alcoholic beverage, maybe a beer or a glass of wine. Or do I want to "de-stress" with an ice cream or starbucks treat of some kind? Hey don't judge me.